I have to search back through the halls of my past, the winding road back to experiences that give me a regenerating hope for the future. Searching for the true source of spirit, cutting off all the bullshit that I've been told by others. I've met those along the road who wished to become leaders and manipulators. those who wanted to be cult leaders and gurus. They have been one of the greatest diversions from my path to my own true connection to the spirit. I have to filter out the person and take the truth that remains. filter out the human bullshit and take the wisdom.
This is not a easy task. I'm surrounded by distractions and annoyances, I'm constantly being tested, my patience is constantly being tested. I must keep to some core essence. Fulfill my duty's and obligations and do my work. Don't expect anything from anyone, leave people to there own decisions. I'll do the best I can and have no regrets. There is peace but its not outside of me, its inside, peace is being complete aware of thyself, full illumination of the inside. Unaffected by outside circumstances. Let the evil ones spit there poison. I"ll remain myself,i"ll continue my path from here into the unknown, where no one may be. I'll be a flame that burns within itself